Sons and Lovers - Chapter 3
儿子与情人 - 第三章
William's death came suddenly. He had been working in London, making a good life for himself. Then came the illness that would take him from them.
威廉的死亡突然到来。他一直在伦敦工作,为自己创造好生活。然后来了疾病,会从他带走他们。
Gertrude received the news with a calm that frightened Paul. She moved through her days like a person in a dream, doing what needed to be done, making arrangements, writing letters, but her heart was broken.
格特鲁德以让保罗恐惧的平静收到消息。她像梦中人一样度过她的日子,做需要做的事,安排,写信,但她的心破碎了。
Paul watched his mother with pain. He saw how she aged in those weeks, how her hair seemed to whiten overnight, how the light left her eyes.
保罗带着痛苦看他的母亲。他看到她在那些周如何变老,她的头发似乎一夜变白,光如何离开她的眼睛。
"I have lost my son," she would say quietly to herself. "My beautiful William."
"我失去了我的儿子,"她会安静对自己说,"我美丽的威廉。"
The house felt empty without William's energy and laughter. Even Walter was affected, though he tried not to show it. He drank more than usual, coming home later and later.
没有威廉的能量和笑声房子感觉空。甚至沃尔特受到影响,尽管他试图不显示。他喝得比平时多,回家越来越晚。
But the greatest change was in Gertrude. Before, she had divided her love between her two sons. Now, all her love focused on Paul.
但最大的变化在格特鲁德。之前,她已经在两个儿子之间分配她的爱。现在,她所有的爱专注于保罗。
Paul became the center of her world. She watched his every move, listened to his every word, offered constant advice and concern.
保罗成为她世界的中心。她观看他的每一个动作,听他的每一个字,提供持续的建议和关心。
"Are you warm enough?" "Have you eaten?" "Are you tired, my son?"
"你够暖吗?" "你吃了吗?" "你累吗,我的儿子?"
Paul loved his mother, but he also began to feel the weight of her love. It was a love that demanded everything, that left no space for anything else.
保罗爱他的母亲,但他也开始感觉她爱的重量。那是一个要求一切的爱,不留任何东西的空间。
He tried to find his own interests, his own friends, but always he returned to his mother, to the comfort of her understanding, to the safety of her protection.
他试图找到他自己的兴趣,他自己的朋友,但他总是回到他的母亲,回到她理解的安慰,回到她保护的安全。
And so, in the shadow of William's death, the bond between Paul and his mother grew stronger and more complex, a relationship that would shape all of Paul's future.
就这样,在威廉死亡的阴影下,保罗和他母亲之间的纽带变得更强和更复杂,一个将塑造保罗所有未来的关系。