Sons and Lovers - Chapter 6
Anak dan Kekasih - Bab 6
It was at the Leivers farm that Paul first met Miriam. She was a quiet girl with large, thoughtful eyes, and from the moment he saw her, Paul felt a strange attraction.
Di peternakan keluarga Leivers-lah Paul pertama kali bertemu Miriam. Dia adalah gadis pendiam dengan mata besar yang penuh perhatian, dan sejak pertama kali melihatnya, Paul merasakan ketertarikan yang aneh.
The Leivers family were religious and strict, but they welcomed the Morels when they came to visit. Gertrude liked Mrs. Leiver, a woman of deep faith and simple wisdom.
Keluarga Leivers religius dan ketat, tetapi mereka menyambut keluarga Morel ketika mereka berkunjung. Gertrude menyukai Nyonya Leivers, seorang wanita dengan iman yang dalam dan kebijaksanaan sederhana.
"Your daughter is special," Gertrude said to Mrs. Leiver one day. "She has a soul that looks upward."
"Putrimu istimewa," kata Gertrude kepada Nyonya Leivers suatu hari. "Dia memiliki jiwa yang luhur."
Miriam and Paul began spending time together. They walked through the countryside, talking about books and dreams and the future. Miriam was shy at first, but with Paul, she began to open up.
Miriam dan Paul mulai menghabiskan waktu bersama. Mereka berjalan-jalan di pedesaan, berbicara tentang buku, tentang mimpi dan masa depan. Miriam awalnya pemalu, tetapi bersama Paul, dia mulai terbuka.
"You are different from other girls," Paul told her. "You understand things."
"Kamu berbeda dari gadis-gadis lain," kata Paul padanya. "Kamu mengerti banyak hal."
Miriam blushed. "I just try to see what is true," she said softly.
Miriam tersipu. "Aku hanya mencoba melihat kebenaran," katanya lembut.
Their relationship grew slowly, built on conversation and shared thoughts. Paul found that he could tell Miriam things he could tell no one else—not about art, or his mother, or his dreams.
Hubungan mereka berkembang perlahan, dibangun di atas percakapan dan pemikiran bersama. Paul menemukan dia bisa menceritakan hal-hal kepada Miriam yang tidak bisa dia ceritakan kepada orang lain — tentang seninya, tentang ibunya, tentang mimpinya.
But Gertrude did not approve. She saw Miriam as too religious, too serious, someone who would hold Paul back.
Tetapi Gertrude tidak setuju. Dia melihat Miriam sebagai terlalu religius, terlalu serius, seseorang yang akan mencekik Paul.
"She will make him unhappy," she told a neighbor. "She is too intense for a normal life."
"Dia akan membuatnya tidak bahagia," katanya kepada seorang tetangga. "Dia terlalu intens untuk kehidupan normal."
Paul could feel his mother's disapproval, and it troubled him. He loved Miriam, but he also loved his mother. Caught between them, he didn't know what to do.
Paul bisa merasakan ketidaksetujuan ibunya, dan itu mengganggunya. Dia mencintai Miriam, tetapi dia juga mencintai ibunya. Terjebak di antara mereka, dia tidak tahu harus berbuat apa.
Miriam, too, sensed the tension. She saw the way Gertrude watched her, and she knew that the older woman did not trust her.
Miriam juga merasakan ketegangan itu. Dia melihat bagaimana Gertrude memandangnya, dan dia tahu wanita yang lebih tua itu tidak mempercayainya.
"Your mother does not like me," Miriam said to Paul one day.
"Ibumu tidak menyukaiku," kata Miriam kepada Paul suatu hari.
"That is not true," Paul said, though he knew it was.
"Itu tidak benar," kata Paul, meskipun dia tahu itu benar.